I'm sorry sweetie. But I do sincerely believe you made the right decision. I know I'm not one to judge you, but I am so proud of you. I've said it before and I'll say it again. You are meant for so much more than this. Life goes on and we all have to go on with it.
I do think you need to fix that misunderstanding. You shouldn't lead him on any further. You're still looking for that real love, and you need to keep going until you find it. Don't let guilt that isn't yours hold you back.