Destroy

Fingers stroke the band-aid
Which hides the cuts and scars
Carved by myself.
Tears rising,
Even though it's been hours since I cut.
Hands shaking
Though there is no reason.
Running from myself
Because I've become unrecognizable.
Fighting through the darkness,
Failing miserably...
Falling further into the hole.
Dreaming for an exit
From this hell-hole I've created
To a world where hope abounds.
Hope.
I've forgotten how that feels...
To be free...
To be able to love without fear...
To be normal...
To not be afraid...
Falling through insomnia
As the day ends...
Time and space flailing;
Limbs lifeless and numb.
Cutting myself deeper,
But wounded so badly,
I am unable to get up...
Clinging to the ground
Reaching for broken pieces
Of my shattered heart.
Spaced out ahead of me,
The shards all too small;
The pieces seem they wouldn't fit
Into a shape like a heart.
Broken and abandoned.
The shards of my own heart
Cutting my hands.
Can you hear my cry?
Can you feel my broken heart
Trying - struggling, failing - to beat
To keep blood pulsing through my veins.
Rushing through madness
And crying as I fall farther and farther.
Please give me a hand!
Take me to that "glorious place"
Away from here.
Away from the disaster,
The pain,
The torture...
And falling into the eternal epiphany of sleep.